Good food, good house, good company,
Good job, good life, Good Lord, why me?
I know it is wrong to demand,
But is it such a sin to ask only one more thing?
It is a luxury given to many,
But not to all.
It is what I have sought my whole life.
It is what I have never had.
It is love.
Never have I pledged my heart to a man,
Never have I had reason to,
Never have I had the chance to,
Never has any man wanted me to,
Never shall they.
~~~But I musn't say such things,
~~~Love will come in time,
But in time for what?

I'm alone,
Though my friends are right beside me,
I'm alone,
I want what's been denied me,
I'm alone,
And so far from my home,
I'm alone.

A friend of mine feels the same.
He wishes for love,
And I fear I may begin to wish for his.
I hardly know him,
~~~But I could love him.
But he does not know,
~~~But I could tell him.
But I cannot,
He would hate me,
~~~But he could love me.
No, he could not.
I have heard him tell of what he seeks,
And he seeks what I am not.
I am not beautiful,
~~~But nor am I ugly.
But I am not smart,
~~~But nor am I stupid.
But I am not clever,
~~~But nor am I dull.
But I am not what he wants,
~~~But no one cam be.
But I am not what he is looking for,
~~~But am I what he is feeling for?

I'm alone,
Though my friends are right beside me,
I'm alone,
I want what's been denied me,
I'm alone,
And so far from my home,
I'm alone.

Again, he speaks of his loneliness,
I cannot stand it!
I want to end his loneliness and mine,
But I cannot.
I cannot tell him.
He is too young, and I too old,
~~~But what is the span of three years?
~~~Love makes no judgements over such trifles.
He cries again.
He may be hundreds of miles away,
But I know.
His tears fall down my cheeks
And jump from my chin to end their misery.
His pain I have felt a thousand times over,
Although I did not know the pain was his.
I want him to know,
~~~So why do I not tell him?
I do not know.
Is it worth the risk to me?
More importantly,
Is it worth the risk to him?
I would be more aid to him as a friend,
~~~But what he needs is a lover.
But how can I be either?
~~~But how can I be neither?
How can I survive this silent fate?
My Eternal Stalemate?